Im so tired of these thoughts and these feelings. The long lasting days. The constent fighting with myself. I have no idea if I show my true feelings or just put on that fake smile like I have for so long. I dont know what to do. Nothing feels right. Everything is so different and impossible nowadays that i cant even last. And your a huge part of whats going on. I cant read you. Im dont know if I really make you happy. I dont known if these is really what you want. I dont know anymore. I hate the fact that allll you care about is getting high. Thats not who I know. It literally makes me feel different and hurts a lil bit that you’ve changed so much. But I’ve loved you since the very first day k saw you. And ill do anything to keep me & you together and as happy as ever. You just gatta tell me what’s going on in your crazy brain.